Missing Girl....

There is a girl that has gone missing not far from when i live now.. Its strange, i really did not know her. But she is in the same group of friends as me... And it breaks my hear to see she is missing. I feel silly, because i did not even know her... But its hard to see it happen only an hour away from where we live. And to have seen her around in Sandpoint... A girl i knew i high school went missing too, and found dead a few weeks latter. Just like this girl, i was not friends with her, but she was in the same group of people as me... There are people that go there whole lives without ever knowing anyone to have gone missing, and now i know (sort of) 2. It makes me so scared. It could happen to anyone... Its always a fear of mine... What if i did happen to me? Its not fair that women and even children have to be afraid... What kind of a world do we live in that we cant be walking by our selves anymore? It breaks my heart. I keep hoping that they find her... And that she is ok. Its a strange feeling to have for someone that i hardly even know.

My mind is always on one holiday. Halloween....

I cant stop thinking about Halloween!! Omg! Its still 3 months away, but i cant wait! Im going to look awesome lol. Im going to do what i can to go as Barbie this year. (Box included) I think im going to rock it.

Today Dustin and I went out for a long bike/skate board ride. We got ice cream, and i got to much:( He could not even finish it. Ugh i was so full. Got some sun riding up there, and back.

Took a nap. And I only slept for like an hour. As planned:) That was really exciting. I tend to sleep to much.

Now im waiting on Mike and Dustin to get done playing there game so we can go Down town to this street festival thing. Its suppose to be supper fun. Walk around, see whats up. I like getting out and doing things with Dustin. I cant wait to get a job! Im so bored. And i dont want to clean anymore:( All and all today has been full of fun. Im really hopping I can talk Dustin into going Roller Skating tomorrow. That would be SO fun:) Everything just seems so much better when Dustin is there. It makes me sad when i do things without him. But that is why i love his weekends. We are always trying to do a little something.

The "Delete Button"

So i feel like a freak or something. I moved, and should not care what so ever what people think. But when it comes to deleting friends on my Facebook, I find it hard to go threw with it. And the worst part is, i know its stupid! But then i see all the stupid friends we have in common and i cant help but think "what if they find out i deleted them from my friends list?" What should it matter? Obviously I dont care enough about them to keep in touch with them, but i can take them off my friends list? What is wrong with me????!?!?!!!!!

But as for today, it was productive for once. I cleaned a good portion of the house. And organized stuff we have not unpacked. (Yay me) The one thing i am procrastinating on is the dreaded "Bathroom" I hate cleaning the bathroom. Ugh, its so nasty! I dont care about doing anything else in the house. But when it comes to the bathroom. YUCK!

Tomorrow i have to go to the collage, and tell them to unenrolle me:( Supper tragic. But next fall i will be able to really do it. This year because I just moved to Cali, they want to charge me $800 a class:( And that does not work for me. Im thinking about taking, a class to teach you to do taxes, so maybe i can get a job at H&R block or something for Tax season. Or i can just have the know how to do our own:)

Just before 7pm....

Im making some dinner!! Ive decided to go on a burrito diet. Beans and rice cant be that bad for you. And almost anything can do in a flower tortilla! Lol. In moderation of course. And its cheep. Not working is really taking its told on me. I think im depressed... Or something. I just need to get out there and do stuff, but i have no want to do it:(

But if i start eating a little better that will help. And i need to get more into house work. Just like the good Al-anon saying goes "When i got busy, I got better" I always try to stay true to that.

But for now im going to do in my living room with my bean and cheese burrito and watch some tv. Im hopping something good is on. Maybe i will do a project or something. Ive got some time. Maybe I will ride my bike to the store and get the bottle of Vodka i have been thinking about.... Or not.. Who knows. Im really hopping to just watch six feet under with Mike, and smoke some hooka then go to bed and get up early tomorrow. I need to start waking up before 11... Its hard...

Over the last 6 months....

So its been 6 months, i guess a update is in order:)

My husband and I saved up lots of money, I worked 2 jobs, and we moved to California in June. What a great experience this has been! Im so thankful that things worked out for us. Over the last 2 months of living in Cali, I have been looking for a job, but nothing has come yet. Im hopping in the next month or so. I mentioned in an earlier blog that i was going to go to school. But California wants to charge me $800 just to sign up because im not a resident yet (boo). So it looks like im going to have to wait another year.

The trip to move hear was amazing. We drove from Sandpoint, To Seattle, then down threw Organ and California to our new home. Lots of scenery to be seen!

We have already made a trip to Reno to see my Step dad and Brother and Sister. And we just got home from Orange County. I love it down there. Too bad everything is so FAKE. Oh well:)

Things im loving:

The SUN! Its so warm hear. Over 100* everyday.

All the things we get to do. 

Getting to spend lots and LOTS of Time with Dustin un-till i find a job.

Things i dont like so much

The SUN! Its so warm hear. Over 100* everyday.

Not having a job. 

Being bored and no knowing anyone yet.

Things should pick up in that department soon i should hope. But for now im happy to say life is good:)

5 days off, now 5 days on...

Well today is the last day in my 5 days off. Now i work the next 5, the i get two days off then work 3 more:) Im excited! I need a few extra dollars:)

Moving Money! I cant wait to get our w-2's as well! I cant wait to file taxes. Were not going to be spending it.. But i like to see it haha. Keeping the dream alive, with more and more plans. Even though i cant help but plan and plan..... But not have any plans to show for it. All we have is....

1) Save money
2) Move to Cali
3) Go to Collage in the Fall

I feel like we should have more. I keep looking at places, and i keep looking at new cars, but with the time gap so far away, there is nothing we can really do.... But wait. I want time to go faster! Then when were moving... Im going to be so stressed! Lol. And im going to be like "This was a bad idea!" Its ok. Were excited. The only think im not looking forward too is that fact that Dustin might have to Move to Cali before me for a month of two! OMG!!! I dont know what im going to do without him for maybe up too, 2 months! I guess i will get this end taken care of. Were going to have to have a yard sale, and pack... And he is going to be in Cali.... :( i dont know how much i will like that.

Please give me the strength and patience to wait to move and be without Dustin... Maybe... I dont know! haha.

To be delegated latter:)

new plans

Today we found out that there is a Brand Spanking New WalMart Opening in the area that we want to live in, in California. The only dilemma, is that fact that its in March were not moving till May at the earliest. So now were thinking it might be in Dustins best intrest to move a little before me and start working and I will join him in a month or so after.... I dont know if we can do that!!!!! I would miss him so much! I dont know if i could go a month without him. Its making me sad just thinking about it:( But we have to do what we have to do to move... But a whole month! I will miss him so much!

yeah not much has been going on. Sitting on the couch for 2 days now. No work till Friday. Dustin is only working 4 days this week. Yay days together! Thats something to be happy about:)

Today was the fun Baby Shower!

I made this Blankey for my friends new baby girl! It was a pretty big hit. I worked hard on it:) But i was pretty happy with it! I keep getting told that i should make them and sell them. I dont know though. These days people dont care if it is hand made. They are looking at the Price. And i know this much. I would have to charge almost $100 for a blanket, and no one wants to pay that! Between materials, and time. It just might not be worth is. I do have a ton of scrap fabric. But then the blankeys will be all crazy randomness, and even though this one has lots of colors, its is in a orderly sort of fashion. This is probably the best blanket i have done. I kind of want to make a nice one for Dustin and I's bed. I have the fabric for it. I just need to find a pattern i want to use and go with it. Then actually do it. I think it might be fun to do when im looking for a job in Cali when we move. I dont think we will have TV. So i will be breaking out the sewing machine. Make Some blankeys:)

But the Baby shower was fun. Lots of Food! I think i ate a little too much:( Its not that im full. It was all just so fattening! But SOOOO good:) I love baby showers! There always so fun. There were alot of kids though at this one. Im not used to being at them with lots of kids. It was a little overwhelming. Good thing i dont have any kids. It would have just added to it. And thats a reason why im just having 1:) And it better be a girl haha.  Toddlers and Tiaras hear we come! 

Dream Killer: Trying to strike again.

Every place we try to think about moving to, people tell us is crap. I mean i understand that some places are not as nice as others but it does not bother me. It does not have to be next to the beach. Then people are telling us to go to Organ. That place is supper lame. I dont know how to feel. I just want away! And then Dustin was being a jerk to me. I dont get his deal, then i tell him that her hurt my feelings. And he does not give a rats ass. Im like great. Then we get told that we can stay in Dustins brothers studio, if it wasnt for the dogs. One let down after another. I just want things to be positive for once! Its so lame. Please just let us find a nice place to live. And have people be supportive of stuff.... And things.... I want cake...

morning snow

This morning there was more snow.... snow snow snow. And a avalanche warning. School was called off. Because of snow... and I don't want to go anywhere. I've been in the house for 3 days. I have not even got dressed. I can go to alanon at 12. (but snow and stuff makes me not want to. And I only have 20min to get ready) I hope dustin will take me to Walmart for fabric. Baby blankey needs to be done by tomorrow night. I'll put up a picture when I'm all done. It's looking good!

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It snowed all night. Had to shovel a spot for puppies to go potty. Its cold today. 

I finally got my freezer up and running! I'm excited. I get to buy lots of things on sale and stock up! Im happy lol. 

Waiting on the the mover guy to show up and give us a price quote on how much its going to cost us to move. He is supposed to be hear at 3. But with all the snow i dont know what to expect. And i never gave him the heads up on turning down the alley way. So lets hope he gets it. Or has my number to call me. 

Ive been looking into lots of areas in Souther Cali, and Dustin really wants to move places that are expensive. But i think its because he is so used to living in the nice areas of Orange County. I dont know if he could handle the ghetto parts. Im so used to it though, because thats were i grew up in Reno was not that great of a place. So i dont really mind neighbors. Its really quite were we live now. I miss noise pollution. The one thing i do like is how there is Stars. When there is "Light Pollution" You dont get a good view of the starts. 

Im dreaming of warm. And Sunshine, and the beach within a few hours. Job opportunities. Among less drama I think its going to be a good move. I cant wait! Four Months is a long while. But im sure it will come faster then i think. 

Snow

The entire reason were moving. I cant take it! And in the next few days its going to snow 30inches! Unreal! I cant wait to be were its warm:)

Today, 01/11/2011

Its called First because its the first one. And i always think of Tosh.0 when he comments on something first. I am always trying to get the "First" Spot on comments that have lots of followers. It sounds silly, but i have made it a goal of mine now. What is funny, is that if you look at the comments lots of people are doing the same thing haha. So i know im not alone, in this great quest. 

Today i am making Dinner for Jonny and I. Carmen was supposed to come over too, but the she didn't for some reason. Its ok though. More dinner for us and leftovers. I love Leftovers:) 

I went out last night for my friends Birthday, she is 25 now. I cant help but think that time is flying so fast. Im closer to 23 now that i am 22. And it just seems like its going by so fast. Am i going to wake up one day and be 50? Sure does seem that way. 

The Holidays flew by this year as well. Im not complaining about that though. I get so tired of the Holidays. But now that there over i only have to look forward too Dustin and I's Birthdays. And thats still a while away. 

Then were off to Sunny Souther California;) Im hoping we like it there. I would hate to move there, and then not like it at all. And want to come back of something. I really want to like it:) I guess I wont know till we move. And every one tells me "You and Dustin are young! Go explore!" And we dont have kids so im not worried about that part. Im going to miss my Brother and Sister a whole lot. Carmen does not want us to go. But i cant deal with my Mother anymore. I just want a break. Do it on our own. If it were up to me, i would move to North Carolina. But Dustin does not like the idea of that:( Maybe one day:)